prom was ytd.. kept thinking whether to go anot.. mayb it's another of my many mistakes i have committed in my life.. it juz wasnt an occasion suited for me, unlike that in sec 4, where at least i still knew quite a few ppl in my sch, whereas in aj i barely know any... mayb the fact that i haf forgotten to take de prom ticket n hafta go back n take was a hint for me to not go, but den since i decide to still go along, i shld haf been happier, at least that wouldnt spoil others' moods rite? mistake after mistake was committed ytd, and it wasnt really one of my highlights of my life..
after that decided to go pubs, those that were opened 24 hrs n haf tv so that we can watch champions league.. however it seems like no pub is opened 24 hrs on weekdays n we ended up sitting by de s'pore river and talked crap... felt really not good for jy as we asked him to come along coz we tot there would be pubs opened, when in de end he has to sit wif us to talk crap, and he could haf gone wif his class to do better stuff such as pool or movie...
but the whole nite spent w/o sleeping brought several qns to my mind.. many of which i still cant find the answers to.. does it seem to be like it is, or do appearances fool? i really cant figure that out... i guess i got much more to learn abt psychology.. 2day was oso not that gd.. reached home at abt 7 plus, den went slp at 8am, all de way to 530pm... went see doc 2day, and de diagnosis turned out to be that i'm now juz suffering from simple illnesses... ZZZ... real crap sia.. den wad's de point of seeing a doc? a complete waste of money i muz say... am really angry wif myself for being so weak this year.. this year de no. of illnesses i haf could even exceed the no. i had for the past 5 years, and this isn't exactly exaggerated, coz i can boast of going to de doc for less than 5 times during my entire secondary sch life...
organising stuff really sux.. i haf been delaying 4/1 gathering for some time coz i really duno wad to do or organise for them to do... and wif other stuff oso left undone, i'm really quite sian of myself, especially when i still spend lots of time on de com... wanted to find my own job, but juz dun haf de motivation to find, and i dun wanna let my mother do de work of finding, but it seems as though i gotta rely on her yet again... wad a case of mommy boy... and i seriously need to cut down on de going out and sleeping late to recover completely from my sickness, to save my mother's money on unnecessary medications... haizzzzzzzz.....
讨厌自己
after that decided to go pubs, those that were opened 24 hrs n haf tv so that we can watch champions league.. however it seems like no pub is opened 24 hrs on weekdays n we ended up sitting by de s'pore river and talked crap... felt really not good for jy as we asked him to come along coz we tot there would be pubs opened, when in de end he has to sit wif us to talk crap, and he could haf gone wif his class to do better stuff such as pool or movie...
but the whole nite spent w/o sleeping brought several qns to my mind.. many of which i still cant find the answers to.. does it seem to be like it is, or do appearances fool? i really cant figure that out... i guess i got much more to learn abt psychology.. 2day was oso not that gd.. reached home at abt 7 plus, den went slp at 8am, all de way to 530pm... went see doc 2day, and de diagnosis turned out to be that i'm now juz suffering from simple illnesses... ZZZ... real crap sia.. den wad's de point of seeing a doc? a complete waste of money i muz say... am really angry wif myself for being so weak this year.. this year de no. of illnesses i haf could even exceed the no. i had for the past 5 years, and this isn't exactly exaggerated, coz i can boast of going to de doc for less than 5 times during my entire secondary sch life...
organising stuff really sux.. i haf been delaying 4/1 gathering for some time coz i really duno wad to do or organise for them to do... and wif other stuff oso left undone, i'm really quite sian of myself, especially when i still spend lots of time on de com... wanted to find my own job, but juz dun haf de motivation to find, and i dun wanna let my mother do de work of finding, but it seems as though i gotta rely on her yet again... wad a case of mommy boy... and i seriously need to cut down on de going out and sleeping late to recover completely from my sickness, to save my mother's money on unnecessary medications... haizzzzzzzz.....
讨厌自己
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