a rain lasted the whole afternoon today... sure, it had been cooling for us, some would say it's a nice weather in have a good nap, but i saw it in a different manner though... several birds came to the ledges or the plants outside my house unit.. and as i listened to their cries, i wondered how many nests were flooded, damaged, or even destroyed by the strong rain during early afternoon.. wad r their cries for? cheering for the cool surroundings brought by the rain after a period of hot weather? or blaming nature for being so destructive? well, i guess for everything, there's always both sides to it.. wherever there's light, there will be shadow.. well, juz a random thought..

there's a saying.. with greater hope, there will be greater disappointment... hmm.. so no hope = no disappointment? this seems to be a cause n effect thingy, eliminate the cause, so that de effect won't happen.. i kinda enjoy watching jap dramas, n reading manga, coz most of them r pretty optimistic in nature, and there will be some quotes which r worth remembering, as some sort of 'values of life', i feel... i guess de reason i enjoy these becoz the optimism in these sort of fill that empty space in my heart ba.. the space which is labelled 'optimism/hope'... i haf been a pretty pessimistic person since birth, which i feel that is a thing which i shldn't haf, coz it leads to many other lousy traits of me... however, as de saying goes, 'environment can be changed easily, but it's difficult to change one's character', character can't really be changed as easily as it's said.. but den i seem 2 haf changed a little recently, with that bit of hope in life... however, as i've said above, hope leads to disappointment, and unfortunately, i experienced disappointment which proved that my previous beliefs were rite.. lolol.. one round n it's back to the original thingy.. still wondering abt de origin of that bit of hope.. is it becoz i've integrated 0805 a little bit more le, becoz i started to believe in the optimistic stuff brought up in the dramas n manga, or due to my peers? but den, i guess no point in finding out anyway, i haf turned back to my old beliefs liao anyway..

life has been pretty boring during promos period, wif all de studying n stuff etc.. but den life after promos has not become better though.. everyday pw n pw, so sian... -_- tml get back papers le.. at least it is a break from all the pw stuff.. still got oral presentation coming up in nov.. damn sian.. haizzz, i guess that's life for me...