trouble...
big trouble...
i cant remember when was de last time i got into a 'big trouble'... or mayb i nvr got into one b4...
i guess ppl who know me see me as some 'mr goody pants', or those kind of really low-profile person who will nvr dare to break the law, the rules etc etc... mayb i'm really this kind of person, one u would nvr thought that would get on the wrong side of de law...
perhaps ppl's jaws will drop when i get my sentence ba.. haha... but seriously i really really really hope that i dun get the worst punishment..
i have long list of mistakes and regrets, which were common to really really regular readers of this blog.. probably enough to fill up one A4 exercise book, but i tink this particular and latest mistake will probably by itself fill up one page of that book...
however, no matter wad, i'm still quite grateful to a couple of ppl... actually 2 person la... always read in novels abt how one person will give a squeeze to another's hand as a comforting gesture, but i nvr understand how that works, coz wont a squeeze cause pain or uncomfort? but i learnt today that it's really quite comforting, when OO squeezed my shoulder, as a comforting and encouraging gesture i believe it to be.. of coz de other person would be my csm who said 'we'll protect u'.. these 2 ppl are really encouraging to me, although my PC is not going to be on the same list... instead she merely introduced more n more rules for de platoon which simply makes our lives more difficult i feel... but the usual me would haf complain alot, but today, these rules juz seem like mere words passing through my ears... but my csm will be temporarily away and so i kinda feel a little insecure but bo bian i guess...
contradicting feelings when i reached home today... told my mother briefly abt de thing, but i was quite disappointed that she only took it as it is and didnt really appear too worried abt it... perhaps she got the feeling that i'm still able to come home today means nth much will happen... but this disappointment feeling quite contradicts with my thoughts earlier in the day.. i was thinking of being casual and normal abt stuff so that she wont get too worried abt me, and i tink i've achieved it now, but disappointment kind of comes wif it.. but i tink this is for de best, coz only i can handle this thing, and alone it is...
and talk abt troubles not coming alone... my sore throat decides to come along and it's simply a total annoyance.. and talk abt de 2 songs i've been listening to lately... it kind of complements my current downcast feeling... the click five is really good! lol...
Empty http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBhzX8dTJ8s
Mary Jane http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qN9tCJGlKbM
the videos kinda sux la, so juz listen to de good music can le =x
for now, i juz hope for everything to be over asap.. sentence faster, punishment faster, so i can juz get it done and over wif, instead of dragging everything and me continuing to suffer... meanwhile, i guess i shld continue to live as per normal... or mayb try to live and act normal..
long sleepless nite ah~~~
big trouble...
i cant remember when was de last time i got into a 'big trouble'... or mayb i nvr got into one b4...
i guess ppl who know me see me as some 'mr goody pants', or those kind of really low-profile person who will nvr dare to break the law, the rules etc etc... mayb i'm really this kind of person, one u would nvr thought that would get on the wrong side of de law...
perhaps ppl's jaws will drop when i get my sentence ba.. haha... but seriously i really really really hope that i dun get the worst punishment..
i have long list of mistakes and regrets, which were common to really really regular readers of this blog.. probably enough to fill up one A4 exercise book, but i tink this particular and latest mistake will probably by itself fill up one page of that book...
however, no matter wad, i'm still quite grateful to a couple of ppl... actually 2 person la... always read in novels abt how one person will give a squeeze to another's hand as a comforting gesture, but i nvr understand how that works, coz wont a squeeze cause pain or uncomfort? but i learnt today that it's really quite comforting, when OO squeezed my shoulder, as a comforting and encouraging gesture i believe it to be.. of coz de other person would be my csm who said 'we'll protect u'.. these 2 ppl are really encouraging to me, although my PC is not going to be on the same list... instead she merely introduced more n more rules for de platoon which simply makes our lives more difficult i feel... but the usual me would haf complain alot, but today, these rules juz seem like mere words passing through my ears... but my csm will be temporarily away and so i kinda feel a little insecure but bo bian i guess...
contradicting feelings when i reached home today... told my mother briefly abt de thing, but i was quite disappointed that she only took it as it is and didnt really appear too worried abt it... perhaps she got the feeling that i'm still able to come home today means nth much will happen... but this disappointment feeling quite contradicts with my thoughts earlier in the day.. i was thinking of being casual and normal abt stuff so that she wont get too worried abt me, and i tink i've achieved it now, but disappointment kind of comes wif it.. but i tink this is for de best, coz only i can handle this thing, and alone it is...
and talk abt troubles not coming alone... my sore throat decides to come along and it's simply a total annoyance.. and talk abt de 2 songs i've been listening to lately... it kind of complements my current downcast feeling... the click five is really good! lol...
Empty http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBhzX8dTJ8s
Mary Jane http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qN9tCJGlKbM
the videos kinda sux la, so juz listen to de good music can le =x
for now, i juz hope for everything to be over asap.. sentence faster, punishment faster, so i can juz get it done and over wif, instead of dragging everything and me continuing to suffer... meanwhile, i guess i shld continue to live as per normal... or mayb try to live and act normal..
long sleepless nite ah~~~
posted by lonewolf at 8:05 PM
1 Comments:
Dear Lonewolf,
though i'm not sure wat happened to u but i hope everything will go well for u in the end. Since u've got two people there who support u, don't worry cos you'r not alone. Anyway, i know it's quite hard to say not to worry but u'll make it thru. Jia you! Tmr will be a better day!
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