it's fri again.. but today wont be a long post again.. this week started off rather badly, being real tired the first 3 days at least, mainly due to lack for slp over the weekends last week... i cant really sleep in till damn late after my body clock is kinda fixed.. so the only option is to slp earlier to prolong the sleeping hours, so i shld slp earlier tonight..

video above is 徐佳莹, champion of season 3 of some taiwan singing contest.. i think she's the only one after 萧敬腾 whom i really took notice of and really like.. the song she's singing is not hers, but by another not bad taiwanese singer, A-Lin... 徐佳莹 juz released her first album, which is 100% self composed, which i feel is very impressive.. some of the songs she oso used during the competition itself.. sry that the video above will end abruptly towards the end..

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dean koontz and his odd thomas nvr fail me.. juz finished the 4th book of the series, Odd Hours.. it's as good as the previous titles in the series, keeping the tone light and sarcastic at times, yet gripping and thrilling at the same time.. through the views of odd thomas, koontz manages to bring out several situations abt life nowadays, which are so true as u read them..

i nvr thought that i would borrow a book, or even visit the library ever since i ORD-ed.. but somehow, much thanks to a friend, who got me to the library a couple of weeks back.. initially didnt thought i would borrow anything, den i juz happen to drift to the 'K' section and happened to see Odd Hours.. den thought i can extend the loan of it, coz 3 weeks seemed juz not enough for me to squeeze time to read a book amid work and the new game on psp... extension failed coz someone has reserved it (which i dun understand why the librarian still displays this book for loans)

so the book remained untouched for a week while i continued my working and psp life.. there was even thoughts to juz return the book untouched b4 the deadline... but all of a sudden, i see the book as an opportunity for redemption.. unsure of when will i see it again, and the very fact that i have THE possession of it now, i started to read it, and funnily, the others on the shuttle bus home from work everyday didnt see me with the psp anymore, instead with Odd Hours...

funny how a book can replace a new game on psp.. perhaps this could prove to be a turning point for me... to change to someone who will act, who will seize opportunities, and to learn the many lessons shown in the book.. or maybe this is juz my hyperactive imagination going into overdrive again, exaggerating a minor minor stuff in life no one else will probably care...

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and this is one of 徐佳瑩's songs in her new album.. abit long i know, but juz bear with it.. the mv is lame too... but the song is good, i really like her voice there..

been thinking abt this lately..

want to stay in hall? no
want to join any cca? no
want to go for orientation camps? no

kinda a 'No' Man huh? they say it's for the experiences, that uni is a once-in-a-lifetime thing.. but then again, didnt i do the same thing in jc, sec sch etc? didnt i live on till now too?

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it's funny how our group is made up of so likewise ppl... care or dun care? it's difficult to tell, but what i know is we dun express very much oso.. so i'll choose to believe that we do care, juz that we dun show.. becoz i'm the biggest example to myself.. i've had countless lessons abt my lack of expressions but i continue to falter..

the world needs a new hero, said Genesis as he tried to win Sephiroth in Crisis Core..

we have no Sephiroth in our group for me to replace, but nevertheless i tried to be the Genesis/Sephiroth, but failed.. maybe we are all Angeals, trying to do sth but always helpless.. i'm pretty much helpless when calls for 4one gathering come up, pretty much due to my lack of knowledge and ideas.. so i'm grateful to those who often voluteer to organise.. xavier oso plays the role in 08 scenarios, but he did get frustrated when mass gatherings are often hard to achieve when the girls had uni and guys had army.. so he decided that those are probably once-in-a-blue-moon liao, but still kudos to him...

but then again, i prefer the group not to change ba.. this is juz how we are, juz that this year is complicated by the 21st thingy.. perhaps this is how we distinguish this group from other groups in life...

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this last video is the original version of the first song.. abit long too, but not bad the song...

it's funny how my 'junior dementia' is working out to be... tues night a friend called while i was sleeping.. wed night he called to tell me that he had called the previous day and i had answered the phone to tell him i was sleeping already.. funny thing is, i have totally 100% no recollections of the tues night incident... no memory of hearing the phone ring, no memory of me picking it up, no memory of me answering and telling him i was sleeping alrdy, and lastly no memory of hearing his reply and ending the call and going back to slp.. i even thought my friend was playing a prank on me and went to confirm w my mother and she confirmed that my phone did ring on tues night and i picked it up...

of coz ppl often dismiss this as absurd, but this is probably the life i hafta live with.. living with holes in memory..

i shld probably end, i've exceeded my supposed timing liao anyway.. till next time~

is that really 'what's on your mind?' ? even so, i do not know how to comprehend it.. i do not know if the context is me or not.. but i choose to think that i'm not a significant person, though this has been bugging me since then..