i didnt plan to be here today.. but life is like weather, it's so unpredictable that u can hardly make plans that can work 100%..

first, the trip seems unlikely with the pulling out of a couple of ppl.. den the trip is confirmed in less than an hr on msn, and looks set in stone.. and finally 2 days later de now famous H1N1 virus goes funny in hongkong and the trip is now set for changes again..

i dun like grey.. but life is grey.. it's full of grey areas for us to venture in and with as many crossroads and no map, we often hafta decide whether the left or right path is de better one to take.. and that's if u're lucky that u only have 2 options to consider..

notice that i used 'better path' and not 'correct path'.. many things have no right or wrong.. it's only right or wrong when the community, the society, the majority come in and decide for everyone...

ppl always say, and i always tink too, that i think too much... funnily, i realise sth abt me today too.. my mind is most of the time blank... i dun have a 'yes' or 'no' on my mind at all... i dun have opinions at all... it's terrifying when u actually tink abt it... most of the time when i go shopping for my friends' bday presents, my mind is actually blank all the time... which brands of perfume is nicer? whether the shirt looks nice anot? i tend to pause for a while, not becoz i'm considering, but simply because my mind is blank..

of coz it may sounds ridiculous to most of u out there, but ppl like me do exist... well, i'm the example for one... as lily has brought up for mayb the 546231th times, and still counting i believe, my former form teacher once said b4 that i have alot of logic... i've realised i've been using logic to make most of my decisions till now...

Pros VS Cons

i nvr asked myself wad i really want, because i know myself, that i cant even give myself an answer, let alone others.. so when the individual opinions are required abt the trip today, i spent a morning, half working half considering/analysing/list out pros and cons/thinking/(wadever u call it), b4 coming to a decision...

care to guess? it shld be a 90% chance of getting the right answer...

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AND IT'S A NO

sometimes i wonder if i'm the opposite of jim carrey, he's the yes man, i'm the no man... ben brought up the point abt not wanting ur friends to catch disease as a joking point... but i've really considered that as one of my point... i oso feel that there's no point going on a trip if the ppl there are health-conscious, everyone avoiding crowded places etc (though all these are juz my imaginations)

sometimes stepping aside, i see myself as a pathetic loser... coming up with reasons like these are probably more as encouragements or affirmations or even consolations to myself, that to convince myself that i've made the right decision..

damn, i'm juz sick of blogging now..