today was de first day of work... and boy it started off real bad with a storm...

the whole day was spent on verifying data in the database which was total boredom... at the end of the day i realised that i'll be 'attached' to the different ppl in the department for everyday of the week.. it's sth like a 'duty roster' of me.. today XX will take charge of me, tml YY, thurs WW, fri ZZ and so on... (u get me)

juz feel like they are choosing ppl to 'babysit' me sia.. feel damn screwed-up.. lunch was with some of de 'colleagues', but got no appetite de whole day today... i'm juz not used to this idea of lunch-ing with colleagues... and it's kind of a dilemma for me and them ba... if they see me sit somewhere they cant possibly sit elsewhere, likewise for me seeing them too...

and office cubicle life is really omg... u are juz fixed in someplace throughout de whole day sia... and i have no official space, so i'm occupying de common computer spot, with interruptions from the perm staff who wanna use it sometimes becoz of sth it can do which their own computers cant do... so usually i'll juz go to toilet at this time coz i juz feel damn weird to stand behind them and wait around...

and being at home isnt any better coz there's this stress of de other job which is freaking difficult to do, and causing me lots of headaches...

wad have i landed myself in?!!?!?

the 2 jobs are killing me now... and i'm almost sure that i'll hand in a rather screwed-up assignment this week... juz hope they would juz sack me or sth...

and now these juz make me admire those ppl who half work half study... how to cope one sia...

juz feel so much rage in me now... juz wanna snap at anything/anyone that comes close...

go slp le, tml 615am again...