i lost...


for more than the past 7 weeks, i've been going

"no ppl call to offer jobs leh"
"i got send alot of applications leh"
"i really got seriously go find jobs"
"difficult to find jobs at this hard times"


but have i really gone 'searching'? have i really 'spammed' as i thought i had?


a friend whom i know has juz started searching and spamming abt 1 week ago has alrdy 1 job offer, which is not bad at all, and i who started 7wks ago is still waiting... it's juz like shooting myself in the foot...


a couple hrs ago i was still thinking, 'today tues only, still got 3 weekdays to go b4 de weekends', and awhile ago as i checked the computer clock i was like 'wth, i totally forgot there was a 31 march', and seriously ytd was really a non-existant day in my memory..


this is very bad....