is it that ppl nowadays are less caring? or is it juz that i happen to witness such stuff that makes no sense at all and full of biasness?
somehow i feel that our current batch of soldiers in my platoon, who are the seniors are getting worse compared to the previous batches of seniors.. at least henry they all went every morning for breakfast, right up till they ord... for us, we started this rotational system where everyone takes turns to go scan, and eventually spreads to the juniors who juz 'copy' us..
not to forget the serious 'arrowing' the seniors are doing... to 'arrow' means to sabo or specifically identify and so to 'arrow' someone means to particulary highlighting him to do some task no one else wanna do.. today i unfortunately witnessed a particular incident which shows some seriously unfair and senseless arrowing of a person in particular..
i nvr understood why cg and wy are so biased against daryl... is it becoz of daryl's image? daryl is an obese person, and he is often laughed at and teased for his weight and size, and so i guess this leads to his very low confidence level and his possible inferior complexity.. therefore he often expresses low confidence in wadever he does, saying he cant do it or he'll do it poorly.. perhaps that's why wy and cg are so critical of him, simply becoz he's weak..
take today's incident for example.. obviously me sq and daryl haf driven a lot since wy loaned out the vehicle... me and daryl both went to some other camp, him escorting the bikers there while i escort them back a couple of days back, while sq escorted them to return bike at bukit panjang.. while wy? he erm.... went to cmtl? btw cmtl is juz another building in our very own camp till houses all the vehicles, so de vehicle ride from there to our building is merely like 1 minute? so isnt it damn obvious that it's only fair for wy to return the vehicle today since he's de one who has driven the least? of coz we dun need to be so 'fair' as to calculate each person's mileage but it's so clear that wy shld drive today...
but instead, cg and wy juz kept scolding daryl for being such an useless bum, not wanting to do anything, and wy simply went next door to daryl's bunk to demand a word of thanks as wy claims that "he's doing a favour for daryl to return the vehicle", and when daryl doesnt 'thank' him? wy simply slams the door and comes back bunk to show off how 'zai' he was.. and cg? simply scolds sq as well for 'having no balls for siding wif daryl' when sq only says that it's only right for wy to return...
sometimes i juz feel wy and cg are kinda like spolit brats... u noe, like the F4 in the drama meteor garden? where they are simply kings and can do anything they wan or feel like... cg can even proudly says 'u noe, i can always tell PC how useless daryl is when i smoke wif her'.. in the first place he's coughing like mad these 2 wks, probably due to his smoking habit and yet he still dun wanna quit and is still quite proud of it... and wy? he tink he's so brave to scold others but in fact he's actually the most coward when he only bullies those weaker than him...
zzz... duno if i'm feeling rage now or i'm juz saddened by they two... wonder wad they are capable of doing if they gain status and power in future... perhaps i'm juz angry at myself for being so useless that i haf no say or power to change their minds or argue wif them... wy sq cg me are one clique yet i'm so weak compared to them... they are ppl wif very strong personalities and they haf their own ideas and are always strong abt their ideas and principles... i'm juz de support role in the clique, so i dun really haf a lot of say... so among the four of us, when i'm closer wif daryl compared to the other 3, today my inaction probably speaks volumes abt my strength ba... kinda stuck in the middle... cg and wy always scold me for being too protective of daryl, while daryl doesnt seem to listen when i tells him to get stronger to prevent being bullied... doubt i can change things around during my time here... stereotypeing and biasness are forces too great for me to battle against...
FF7 advent children tifa's theme piano version is quite a nice instrumental music... perhaps becoz i'm abit sian of aeris's theme alrdy ba, lol... but i typed this entry while playing it, it still cant sooth my rage/sadness/helplessness... mayb u there can enjoy it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJZt-bshvKI
around 3.5 days left before i leave for aussie..
somehow i feel that our current batch of soldiers in my platoon, who are the seniors are getting worse compared to the previous batches of seniors.. at least henry they all went every morning for breakfast, right up till they ord... for us, we started this rotational system where everyone takes turns to go scan, and eventually spreads to the juniors who juz 'copy' us..
not to forget the serious 'arrowing' the seniors are doing... to 'arrow' means to sabo or specifically identify and so to 'arrow' someone means to particulary highlighting him to do some task no one else wanna do.. today i unfortunately witnessed a particular incident which shows some seriously unfair and senseless arrowing of a person in particular..
i nvr understood why cg and wy are so biased against daryl... is it becoz of daryl's image? daryl is an obese person, and he is often laughed at and teased for his weight and size, and so i guess this leads to his very low confidence level and his possible inferior complexity.. therefore he often expresses low confidence in wadever he does, saying he cant do it or he'll do it poorly.. perhaps that's why wy and cg are so critical of him, simply becoz he's weak..
take today's incident for example.. obviously me sq and daryl haf driven a lot since wy loaned out the vehicle... me and daryl both went to some other camp, him escorting the bikers there while i escort them back a couple of days back, while sq escorted them to return bike at bukit panjang.. while wy? he erm.... went to cmtl? btw cmtl is juz another building in our very own camp till houses all the vehicles, so de vehicle ride from there to our building is merely like 1 minute? so isnt it damn obvious that it's only fair for wy to return the vehicle today since he's de one who has driven the least? of coz we dun need to be so 'fair' as to calculate each person's mileage but it's so clear that wy shld drive today...
but instead, cg and wy juz kept scolding daryl for being such an useless bum, not wanting to do anything, and wy simply went next door to daryl's bunk to demand a word of thanks as wy claims that "he's doing a favour for daryl to return the vehicle", and when daryl doesnt 'thank' him? wy simply slams the door and comes back bunk to show off how 'zai' he was.. and cg? simply scolds sq as well for 'having no balls for siding wif daryl' when sq only says that it's only right for wy to return...
sometimes i juz feel wy and cg are kinda like spolit brats... u noe, like the F4 in the drama meteor garden? where they are simply kings and can do anything they wan or feel like... cg can even proudly says 'u noe, i can always tell PC how useless daryl is when i smoke wif her'.. in the first place he's coughing like mad these 2 wks, probably due to his smoking habit and yet he still dun wanna quit and is still quite proud of it... and wy? he tink he's so brave to scold others but in fact he's actually the most coward when he only bullies those weaker than him...
zzz... duno if i'm feeling rage now or i'm juz saddened by they two... wonder wad they are capable of doing if they gain status and power in future... perhaps i'm juz angry at myself for being so useless that i haf no say or power to change their minds or argue wif them... wy sq cg me are one clique yet i'm so weak compared to them... they are ppl wif very strong personalities and they haf their own ideas and are always strong abt their ideas and principles... i'm juz de support role in the clique, so i dun really haf a lot of say... so among the four of us, when i'm closer wif daryl compared to the other 3, today my inaction probably speaks volumes abt my strength ba... kinda stuck in the middle... cg and wy always scold me for being too protective of daryl, while daryl doesnt seem to listen when i tells him to get stronger to prevent being bullied... doubt i can change things around during my time here... stereotypeing and biasness are forces too great for me to battle against...
FF7 advent children tifa's theme piano version is quite a nice instrumental music... perhaps becoz i'm abit sian of aeris's theme alrdy ba, lol... but i typed this entry while playing it, it still cant sooth my rage/sadness/helplessness... mayb u there can enjoy it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJZt-bshvKI
around 3.5 days left before i leave for aussie..
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