ytd was singapore first ever F1 race, and the world's first ever night race.. on this day, i learnt pretty much abt the ups and downs of life...

fernando alonso, 2 time world champion, defied all odds to win the race ytd night.. this was after saturday's disastrous qualifying for him that caused him to start ytd's race in the 15th position...

becoz of a fuel pressure problem, alonso has to abandon his car during the qualifying on saturday and was clearly upset judging from his reactions after climbing out of de car... as quoted from him on saturday, he said "The race is lost. You can't overtake here and I'm starting from 15th, so I will be going out just to lap the track, but it's over already", clearly indicating that he's kinda resigned to de fate that he cant win..

but slightly less than 24hrs later, due to various reasons here and there, alonso was leading the pack and went on to win the singapore grand prix.. alonso was thrilled wif the win and he said "I think I need a couple of days to realise that we won a race this year which seemed impossible all season to be that close to the top guys."

talk abt change of fortune.. one day everybody, including he himself, had thought his adventure in singapore was over, and the very next day he completed the feat that "seemed impossible" to juz abt everyone..

i guess this is juz life ba.. u nvr know when it's gonna goes up or down... it could very well go right up to the top one day, and the next day it juz falls to the pit bottom.. i suppose life is like a brand new race track.. u duno when's de next turn, and whether it's a left or right turn.. u duno how sharp is it and so u duno whether u hafta turn real slow or u can go quite quick on it... but as u learn abt that kind of turn, u gain experience and when u encounter a similar turn, though in a different stage of the track, u can execute the turn quite smoothly..

for me... ya, ytd was a good lesson abt the ups and downs of life..

so short of time nowadays..

today's time passed like lightning.. so fast and it's night time alrdy...

and it isnt helped that i hafta book in soon for guard tml... monday will be rather rushed too due to de washing of equipment that i'll be using for guard tml... doubt i will utilise the morning guard rest very much...

anyway i continued the ff7 series by finishing watching Advent Children today.. really quite a nice show.. didnt really expect the other characters to pop up oso as i tot it was juz cloud's story.. overall it's quite worth watching...

recently was listening to a song from last time.. s club 7 -- say goodbye
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSj0k2m1tD4&feature=related

time's running out, but i really got nth much to say here.. funny life eh...

i'm in fear...

in fear of that unknown source of anger...

it's like there's full of methane gas and gunpowder in me that a tiny little spark can ignite the fury in me, making me lose control and cool, snapping at anyone who crosses my path...

i really dun like this..


meanwhile, i saw a quote that i quite like today...

"We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand." -- Randy Pausch (u can find out more abt this guy via google or even youtube)

time is running out...

tml comes the 4th last weekend b4 i go off to australia.. not to forget i haf duty on de last weekend of this month, so i haf effectively 3 weekends left... after that would be 6 long wks in australia... cant wait for all of these to be over...

de past 2 months met up wif several grps of frens.. first was de 4one ppl, whom i havent seen for more than a year alrdy... although it wasnt the full class ppl, (in fact only a small grp) it was still decent and we had some fun catching up wif each other's lives... den was de 08 ppl, whom i oso quite long nvr see liao.. didnt really do a lot but juz walk here n there, den oso shuffling here n there for dinner, den running in de rain for de movie, but it's quite fun oso...

still got several stuff on my 'to-do list' b4 i leave, hope can settle them all ba...

de past wk in camp was ok la... had a rather unusual debate on tues... coz cg was talking abt how boring it will be in de future, and not knowing wad to do in de future... den for some reason me n sq were debating abt how one's life shld be lived out...

sq's belief is that each person only has one life, and so he shld live it to the fullest, and even attempt to 'prolong' it by leaving a lasting legacy behind, so that ppl decades and centuries can still rmb ur name...

my belief is that it's quite impossible to achieve that kind of glory nowadays.. unless u can do sth so earth-shaking, u probably cant be remembered for that long... come to tink of it, those that are remembered till now are either great inventors like thomas edison, great conquerors like napoleon, or great men who shaped the development of countries like gandhi... we cant really lead a conquest nowadays, neither can shape de development of singapore that much, and inventions haf to be really life-changing.. (juz think abt de numerous inventors in japan and we cant tink of any famous modern day japanese inventions) even if u are remembered, how many ppl really do care abt u? we haf yishun, one whole town named after a man, but wad do we really noe abt him? i guess all we noe abt yishun is de place and de stuff it has, not that man de town is named after... or mayb at most ppl will 'study' abt u for their exams for history or social studies and probably forget u right after their exams...

when asked abt my ambition, i cant really name one, coz like 75-80% of de ppl our age group, i duno wad i wanna do in de future... but simply, one can have their own way of living... they can have great ambitions, but having small ambitions isnt bad either... one hoping to leave a legacy behind is good, but one who hopes to set up a good family in de future isnt bad oso... perhaps it's not bad an idea to hope to set up a good family in de future, a way to stop all de mistakes and problems left from de previous generation... but as cg pointed out, ppl nvr learn from mistakes...

so now, where can i buy that 'Ways of Good Fathering For Dummies'?

it has been two different weeks..

last week was so busy.. cleaning and packing this and that, getting ready to go to australia.. although it was a short week last week, (only 3 weekdays for me) it felt longer than any other 5-weekday week, simply becoz we practically worked all de way from morning to evening... den on fri, when i took off to take my basic theory test, apparently everybody was stoning and waiting for the inspectors that nvr came, we all hafta go back on saturday.. and we worked until 4pm like that, concluding the day wif a mad rush to become 'coolies' in rain..

this week supposedly is another busy one, juz that last min everything changed and so it becomes rather slack, or shld i say very slack... but the main thing is that i could be in taiwan now! =/ couldnt go becoz of the original plan but now it's cancelled liao.. zzz.. but den again, i would rather not go de original plan stuff..

and during this slack period of time, it's either sleeping or thinking abt random stuff... one of de random stuff that is de most significant shld be the sudden realisation of how 'blind' i am.. holding my small clock at the full arm length, i cant see the black clock hands against the white background... and it's literally cannot see at all..

and disaster struck my ever ailing body again... 3 ulcers at one time is simply no joke.. now i understand wad it's like to be hungry but after one bite u are 'full' again, simply becoz pain overwrites everything else.. sometimes it even makes me speak as if i haf sth in my mouth like that... and de worse thing is i suddenly got serious sore throat today, which makes eating an even more unenjoyable experience... sadness... i guess this juz explains my facebook status now..

Phua wonders if it's karma

a simple thing like asking me to save my psp game so that he can play... is it that hard to tell me himself? that he needs to 'relay' the message thru her? perhaps that's de way now..