ok, the whole matter has concluded...

it has occurred, been judged, and settled... all within a week...

not say i prefer this punishment, but i'm de 'criminal', so i cant ask for much, rite?

had a weird weird dream last nite.. it seems so real, (although the logic is wrong), and a feeling of the heart makes it seem more real, yet it's still a dream... perhaps the dream is a signal for me to do sth abt it, a reminder of wad i shld be doing, sth i shld haf done, or shld be doing these 3 months...

yet, coward me didnt do anything again today... becoz of fear? i dunno...

i really dun wanna lose it, but i'm not helping myself for being passive...

feel really really lousy now... and it's not helped by the fact that i need leave hse now to book in...


stupid, idiot, lousy, dumb, useless, weak, COWARD weisheng..