ytd spoke to a captain abt life... firstly i asked him y he chose this career, his answer was that partly becoz he took a scholarship from here, and oso becoz at that time he duno wad he gonna do... we both agreed that at my age, it's quite difficult to find someone who really really know wad he/she gonna do in de future...

to him, everything is juz work... he took civil engineering in uni, now oso wear green... being officer, engineer, or accountant are all simply work... it's very very difficult to get both job satisfaction and good pay... of coz as now we talk abt de part abt salary, de captain is someone who sees salary as quite an important criteria for de choice of de career i guess... he said money is really quite important in this world, so if de balance between job satisfaction and salary cant be attained, den actually we shld go more for de money part...

of coz, she's still asking me abt de psychology course i'm going for, which apparently she didnt noe i have sort of given it up... she juz keep saying de 2 yrs of masters juz get a loan from bank and repay de debt when i start work... de point is the 2 yrs of masters isnt even guaranteed that i can study it.. it still depends on my 3 yrs of first degree studies results... so apart from de possible case that after 3 yrs of first degree i dun haf enough funds to continue masters, there's oso a case when even if i haf de funds, my results from de first 3 yrs dun allow me to continue masters... so both cases end wif me getting only a first degree in psychology... which i duno if that will be of use to me in future anot...

too much uncertainty...

let's see... juz when i thought i got some breakthrough in the ever serious dilemma over future sch stuff, sth else will destroy my temporary sense of 'achievement' that i've finally decided on sth... i guess it's a 'breakthrough' afterall, whereby my options is cut by 1 and so i have lesser choices to consider abt... it isnt really anyone's fault that the options is cut.. juz a matter of life, u cant haf it den so be it...

as i listened to her talk abt how she had set aside money for de 2 of us to continue studies, and how she talked abt her support for me to carry on the 'impossible' path if i really wan it, i knew that de costs incurred for de additional 2 yrs will be a really really enormous burden... so as wad we, lowly men in saf, learnt, we juz hafta take in on de chin, suck thumb and get on wif life... life goes on rite?

jeremy feels it's brave to continue to wait for de right person to come... for me, i feel you are really brave if u can break the conventional thinking of de society juz becoz u really wan sth... be it that u wanna marry someone of de other race and ur traditional family rejects but u insist coz u feel that he/she is really de right one for u, or be it that u move on to poly after jc not becoz ur results sux but u really wan to pursue a course available in poly but not uni, going against the traditional thoughts of uni after jc thingy... i feel this is really really brave, to go for things u know u wan...

as for me, lol, after several days of resting, tml is back to 'work', and de latest news i received is that i'll change a different 'jobscope', doing different stuff, and certainly it's for de worse... juz can hope it's not too worse, and...................


PLS DUN RAIN TML!!! =/

'the leap years' was, as quoted from the 'movies' section of some newspaper i've seen somewhere, surprisingly good.. it wasnt really draggy, like de typical korean or taiwanese dramas... (unless u consider the long stretch of 4 leap years as draggy) soundtrack was oso quite nice... (ok, bias sensed here, coz the songs are mostly by corrinne may =x ) and more surprisingly, there are quite a few humour points in the characters' dialogue...

there are several quotes that were in the movie... for example
"Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous." ~ Einstein
"A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it." ~ Jean de La Fontaine
"Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." ~ Tennyson

and the one i feel that makes most sense to me is:
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." ~ Robert Frost

i wonder if one would juz wait for his/her true love for so long... li-ann waited 12 yrs.. during this time i doubt she dated anyone else, of coz wif de exception of raymond whom she eventually accepted his proposal and ended up running away from de wedding... mayb it's like wad jeremy said at de beginning where ppl cant wait to fall in love coz they are afraid of being alone...

well anyway i juz got news of a new timetable for my duty... which seriously sux... some parts of de timetable i juz dun understand y it's included... bound to cause serious resentments but den, wad can we do? we're juz lowly beings there...

greater the expectations greater the disappointment... so dun expect much... guess living wif no expectation makes life better

been raining cats and dogs these couple of days...

i really really pity de others involved in a different way as me...

perhaps i hafta learn to be grateful at all times...

shld nvr take things for granted until the things are gone or worse stuff haf come in b4 i start to haf regrets...

comp is spoiling... only managed to start it miraculously somehow... not even sure if i can start it again if i shut down this time...

wonder when i can come back again..

my ops officer is leaving soon, so had quite a talk wif him a couple of days back... talked alot of stuff... asked him abt his opinions abt my change of course thing... it's like he got lots of information abt courses and future prospects stuff... me n him agreed that accountants haf quite a sad n boring life... he said accountants practically live and sleep in offices during the peak periods... i oso cant imagine myself wearing office wear and go to and fro work and keep doing those calculating stuff...

abt psychology he said stuff like ppl like counsellors are in demand in future as ppl nowadays are having more n more problems like depressions... oso, he said that if u're really good, den duno wad he said abt stuff like masters (i really dun understand these honours, masters stuff), den u will be in demand and earn much... he say he got a fren who earns like 8k a month? of course that includes de courses his fren organises oso...

finally abt aerospace he said he didnt noe much abt it coz it's a relatively new course.. but of course it's quite a new and exclusive course... however, in de end, i guess i haf to take wad he said wif a pinch of salt... obviously as i know he's a good speaker, so he might exaggerates stuff abit.. i guess it's still up to myself to decide which course to go...

oso, he gave us his insight abt a particular U, abt its systems, abt how things are exaggerated abt it in news, and stuff... of coz this is oso sth i believe half half only, as this may juz be his opinions....

that nite he oso chat abt coy stuff wif us, until rather late, so was really tired ytd... den went out for a little 08 gathering last nite... juz went to pizza hut to eat and chat... really quite some time since i last met them... was abit disconnected from them, as de gals were at sch, while xav n long were same camp, so cant really participate much... but still it was quite good to see them again...

from Bull Fighting Episode 16: 选择推开的人更难过

true anot? no idea...

anyway, recently (well actually today) found out that actually 花儿乐队 got alot of good songs... really feel that they are de best boyband in mando pop..

although i dun prefer it, but i still sense it coming nonetheless... talk abt cause and effect... there's always reasons that lead to this kinda ending... but if it's really not to be me, den i hope that a much better candidate is chosen...

talk abt sad stuff... y all sad stuff come at de same time sia? =S i wan slp de sia... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i guess when it comes down to personal problems, guys tend not to reveal when compared to gals... or perhaps not.. mayb it's juz de environment... when u're wif a whole grp of guys, i guess as a guy u dun tend to tell them ur problems, especially when de problems are real personal...

de others, de guys, oso duno how to react in this case, especially when they can see that de person is not his usual self, but wont noe how to ask abt it.. they will always believe that de person will be better off if they leave him alone, and go on wif life wif him as per normal..

but this kinda goes against my theory i made some time back that humans, being humans, tend to talk alot abt their extremes... ie humans will either compare wif each other who has gone thru the worst shit, or compare who has gained the most... it's as if being at the extremes make them high up... and so, when someone sees that u haf problems and asks abt it, most of de time u will tell him ur problems, coz humans need ppl to tell of their agony, pain, worries and problems...

however, my this 'theory' doesnt really distinguish between the genders and the environment de genders are in... it juz states that all humans do this... but well, theories dun go wif each and every human beings...

watched L change the world today... not bad a movie... interactions wif the kids were quite comical, as L shows his not that clever side, which is how to handle kids... i guess living a life which u noe when it's ending is quite a sad thing... although u can try to wrap up everything that's half done in ur life, no matter how u are prepared to die, u will be still be reluctant to leave this world when the time's up... no matter how he completed all de unfinished cases in 5days, how he managed to stop de spread of de deadly virus, how he found home for Near, he still cant bear to leave the world... i still feel that de title of de film is quite weird, as he didnt really change the world.. shld haf sticked to de original name 'Last 23 days of L'...

well that's one movie down... still got lots of movies that i'm interested in, but i guess no time to watch liao.. lol...