2nd day of CNY... happy CNY to all who's reading this blog.. (well i duno who is =x) a long overdue update to the blog, wif many thoughts running thru my mind de past 2 wks, and today wasnt a particularly gd day to rmb...

let's start wif today... as usual the practice every year, we will go to one of my aunt's hse to 'bai nian'... and as usual, i'm not really into this kinda family gathering thingy... i guess everyone has that cousin who's really sociable, humorous and u really enjoy talking to him/her.. well i'm juz de complete opposite... sometimes i'm oso quite puzzled by this.. wif frens and wif relatives i'm juz two different persons, which i dun understand why... or mayb i overrate myself le ba... mayb wif frens i'm oso not really high-profile, juz that i overrate myself too much... i'm juz that anti-social phuaweisheng...

and today was spent contemplating abt whether to get a psp... talk abt impulse buying =S juz becoz these few days are cny holidays, and i haf nth to do when my bro uses de com, and i was juz so damn bored juz now at my aunt's hse that i'm considering whether to get a psp to pass time.. but to think again, i'm a stay-in one and so at most i only get to play my psp on weekends... but thinking again i can keep it for long wad, after my ns life oso can use ma... but it's so ex...... =S haizz....

one of de thoughts been thru my mind recently is abt my future... near future, that is university life... as some may noe, i'm on a driving course now, and being de only one from my unit, i cant probably survive alone there for 5wks, so i made a couple of frens there... one of them take de same buses home as me, and so one of the days, we were talking abt our future life... when he knew that i was taking accountancy, he was like questioning my choice... his logic is that since i can enter uni, y waste my A level cert on a course which anyone can take outside... this meaning that someone could haf taken accountancy private courses, or in poly... so his point is i shld take courses not available to others outside... somemore he feels that accountancy is like a one-way path in future, ie i can only be an accountant and dun really haf much job choices in future, forever being the accountant.. and this sets me thinking... do i really want accountancy? well i could follow a couple of my frens to enter aerospace engineering, which is totally exclusive to uni students, or i could even take up the psychology course... or mayb i shld juz stick to my original choice accountancy and compete wif de others when i graduate... tough choices, not something i can handle well...

another thought going thru my mind recently is my slow reaction time... of coz i dun mean physically, rather mentally... whenever sth crops up, whether it's a decision to be made, or an opportunity, i will take damn long, and i really mean damn long to come to a decision... this is largely becoz i dun wanna make a wrong choice and regret... but sadly, b4 i come to this long-awaited decision, most of de time de end product will be either i haf only 1 choice, or de opportunity has gone by... so in de end, it will still end up in regrets =/

screwed up life, isnt it?