looking for sources to go out for dinner later.... like where to go etc...

not that i die die oso muz go out to eat, juz that at home no dinner cooked, and so i chose this path to go out to eat myself...

reason?

juz dun wanna stay at home like that... dun wanna ask him if he wan me to buy for him anot...

becoz of?

duno, but one thing i'm sure of... this relationship has gone from worse to worst... eh no, shld be from bad to worse, coz i believe there will still be a worse case than de current situation...

hai, wondering if i shld call any fren out to eat anot... kind of weird to eat out alone... but den again, i did that for work last time rite? somemore it's kinda late to ask anyone out now liao...

headache again... damn tired... y i keep continue doing stuff that harms myself? =/

they say ppl grow up faster in harsher times... i wonder if this is true...

i always said that in my opinion, academic achievements are no big deal achievements... it's those non-academic stuff, be it u noe a skill, u can play a particular sport very well, u can debate and talk well, or mayb that ur mind can turn fast, that i feel are truly achievements...

driving, to say it all, practical and actual driving is everything... u can score well in theory assessments, homework, tests, but these dun mean anything at all... wad matters most is still practical... whether u CAN or CANNOT drive...

first day of driving today.. kana ****ed up down left right by instructor... treat us like we can grasp de skill immediately... i wonder if we can really pick up this skill fast by this method of teaching... besides, de schedule is really really rushed... 3 days of circuit driving this wk, next wk, juz after 3 days of driving, we are going public! fast sia...

my other platoon mates who haf been thru de course may haf told me to get prepared for de 'teaching' method, but i tink i juz didnt anticipate this level...

this course is damn tiring course... i tink i gonna slp at 9 everyday at this rate, and de worse thing is, i still get tired de next day!! =/ i could be sleeping my saturday afternoon away to replenish energy... =S

ok, head starting to ache liao, shld go zzz liao... prepare for another 'teaching' session tml..........

yea, new year has come... but i'm not hoping a lot for this year... mainly becoz i'm still a soldier for de whole of this year, wif more stuff coming for me... i'll undergo stuff which i have never imagined b4 in my life, and continue to learn more abt life, abt how harsh and unfair the reality is...

no wonder ppl always say this phrase of life is where 'boys become men'... of coz they change from innocent and naive boys to cynical and untrusting men, after they haf been subjected to this unfair treatment...

today, first day of de new year, an old feeling came back to look for me... when young, when u were in sch, after a long holidays, say de dec hols, and when sch is restarting, will u feel really really sian abt going back to sch? juz feel like staying at home to rot? well i had this feeling when young, like pri sch till like sec 2 like that... but after that all is fine, coz i haf become to quite like sch, and so i always look forward to meeting up wif frens i havent seen for de long month...

now de feeling has come back to look for me... mayb de festive mood of this month, mayb de many leave i took this month have made me feel real real sian to go back to soldiering life... but certainly juz this first wk of de new year isnt encouraging at all...

SOC trial test on thurs, guard duty on sat, den after a short sunday out from camp, next wk is a whole week exercise, probably at tekong... talk abt promising start =/

but i guess de only good thing is that de platoon is together, so everyone is fun to be wif... even after de unfair punishment is handed out, de platoon stuck together and was laughing away at jokes, that even OC commented 'wah, tio punishment liao still can laugh so loud' =X

anyway, new year calls for new year resolutions and hopes like that rite? well i'm not really someone who make these stuff de, but if i really can make 1 wish for de new year, i really really hope that this year can pass asap =X