it's weird how moods can change so easily.. in de morning, i was so sick of working that i was considering quitting.. after de afternoon shift ppl come in, my mood juz became better just like that.. weird...
i juz cant connect wif de morning ppl, but i juz dun understand y... is it becoz de aunties there will juz talk among themselves, especially in dialects n so i cant understand half of wad they r saying? is it becoz i feel that de aunties there feel that i'm a newbie everyday, one that juz came the day b4, (when in fact i haf been working for abt a month) n so was seeing me as a burden? or is it becoz i feel that they dun trust me, becoz of my lack of experience n build?
de biggest difference between working in de morning shift n afternoon shift for me is that i nvr noe wad to do in de morning, especially when i arrive.. de aunties seem to haf some sort of system whereby certain veg or fruits r assigned to them, n so obviously de newboy, me, will haf nth assigned to.. so i gotta ask for wad to do, n i always feel like i'm a ball, being tossed from one auntie to another to find sth to do... however, in de afternoon, i always noe wad to do, as there isnt any system abt who's in charge of wad fruits or veggie.. everyone juz helps n does wad's there to do, dividing de work among ourselves... now that jennifer (one of my TL) has assigned my roster such that i gotta do a cycle of 1 wk morning shift, 1 wk afternoon shift n so on, it seems like i would dread 1 wk enjoy 1 wk of work...
m i really not suited for this job? i kept thinking abt this qn in de morning... our job obviously most importantly requires strength as de basic requirement.. we needa carry boxes around, at least 10 kg each, here n there, up n down, n so strength is definitely needed... for those who noe me, n saw me in person b4, will definitely dun haf de impression of me having that basic requirement liao.. i'm juz like a stick-man, one of de comments i haf heard b4... u dun really expect a stick-man to be able to do this kind of job rite? i guess that could be a reason y i feel that most aunties there dun feel that i can do de job properly, so having little trust in me... i considered quitting, but i figured out that i juz gotta "keep holding on", n not be so irresponsible... i made use of de quotation marks coz actually "keep holding on" is de name of de song of de movie 'eragon'.. lolol.. digress a bit.. actually that's a not bad song by avril i-duno-spell-her-last-name.. that skaterboy singer la.. anyway, back to de topic.. wad i wanna to say is juz that i realised i cant be that irresponsible n it's not that i'm totally hating this job, but i juz dislike working in morning shift.. n it got totally nth to do wif de waking up time btw...
on tues this wk, was chatting wif an auntie when we were waiting for time to pass as we were waiting for de time to knock off n all de stuff haf been completed liao (that day i was working in de afternoon shift).. she asked abt my relationship wif my bro n i told her abt how bad it is now n she said mayb i shld make de first step in fix de problem since i'm de elder... she said abt how parents will wan their children to be close to each other de.. but i said i will juz tink too much n will often wonder wad will happen if i take de first step, will it be a success or will it juz carry on as it is now... den she said that i shld change this character of mine, being indecisive n thinking too much.. she gave de advice of doing de first decision that comes to my mind which i feel is right.. but den i replied i duno, coz i already knew of my this weakness long ago n if i could do sth abt it i guess i would haf done it le ba... i guess i'm juz de person who will automatically think too much n consider many possibilities.. i'm juz de kind of person who will not be able to do that kind of tests that require u to choose de answer that comes to ur mind immediately from multiple choice qns...
i tink enough of blabbering for today ba.. now i feel that wad i wrote is kinda senseless n pointless... but at least de gd thing would be that tml will be de last day which i will be working morning shift b4 i'll be working afternoon for next wk.. although de wk after next will be morning shifts again, i'm not thinking abt them for de moment =)
PS: most of de time, i guess we decide our own emotions, either to give in to de surroundings n be miserable, or to become 'hardened' n feel nth in lousy environment.. at least feel nth is better than being miserable ba..
i juz cant connect wif de morning ppl, but i juz dun understand y... is it becoz de aunties there will juz talk among themselves, especially in dialects n so i cant understand half of wad they r saying? is it becoz i feel that de aunties there feel that i'm a newbie everyday, one that juz came the day b4, (when in fact i haf been working for abt a month) n so was seeing me as a burden? or is it becoz i feel that they dun trust me, becoz of my lack of experience n build?
de biggest difference between working in de morning shift n afternoon shift for me is that i nvr noe wad to do in de morning, especially when i arrive.. de aunties seem to haf some sort of system whereby certain veg or fruits r assigned to them, n so obviously de newboy, me, will haf nth assigned to.. so i gotta ask for wad to do, n i always feel like i'm a ball, being tossed from one auntie to another to find sth to do... however, in de afternoon, i always noe wad to do, as there isnt any system abt who's in charge of wad fruits or veggie.. everyone juz helps n does wad's there to do, dividing de work among ourselves... now that jennifer (one of my TL) has assigned my roster such that i gotta do a cycle of 1 wk morning shift, 1 wk afternoon shift n so on, it seems like i would dread 1 wk enjoy 1 wk of work...
m i really not suited for this job? i kept thinking abt this qn in de morning... our job obviously most importantly requires strength as de basic requirement.. we needa carry boxes around, at least 10 kg each, here n there, up n down, n so strength is definitely needed... for those who noe me, n saw me in person b4, will definitely dun haf de impression of me having that basic requirement liao.. i'm juz like a stick-man, one of de comments i haf heard b4... u dun really expect a stick-man to be able to do this kind of job rite? i guess that could be a reason y i feel that most aunties there dun feel that i can do de job properly, so having little trust in me... i considered quitting, but i figured out that i juz gotta "keep holding on", n not be so irresponsible... i made use of de quotation marks coz actually "keep holding on" is de name of de song of de movie 'eragon'.. lolol.. digress a bit.. actually that's a not bad song by avril i-duno-spell-her-last-name.. that skaterboy singer la.. anyway, back to de topic.. wad i wanna to say is juz that i realised i cant be that irresponsible n it's not that i'm totally hating this job, but i juz dislike working in morning shift.. n it got totally nth to do wif de waking up time btw...
on tues this wk, was chatting wif an auntie when we were waiting for time to pass as we were waiting for de time to knock off n all de stuff haf been completed liao (that day i was working in de afternoon shift).. she asked abt my relationship wif my bro n i told her abt how bad it is now n she said mayb i shld make de first step in fix de problem since i'm de elder... she said abt how parents will wan their children to be close to each other de.. but i said i will juz tink too much n will often wonder wad will happen if i take de first step, will it be a success or will it juz carry on as it is now... den she said that i shld change this character of mine, being indecisive n thinking too much.. she gave de advice of doing de first decision that comes to my mind which i feel is right.. but den i replied i duno, coz i already knew of my this weakness long ago n if i could do sth abt it i guess i would haf done it le ba... i guess i'm juz de person who will automatically think too much n consider many possibilities.. i'm juz de kind of person who will not be able to do that kind of tests that require u to choose de answer that comes to ur mind immediately from multiple choice qns...
i tink enough of blabbering for today ba.. now i feel that wad i wrote is kinda senseless n pointless... but at least de gd thing would be that tml will be de last day which i will be working morning shift b4 i'll be working afternoon for next wk.. although de wk after next will be morning shifts again, i'm not thinking abt them for de moment =)
PS: most of de time, i guess we decide our own emotions, either to give in to de surroundings n be miserable, or to become 'hardened' n feel nth in lousy environment.. at least feel nth is better than being miserable ba..
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