i'm tired....
real tired from my job...
been working more than a month, but today i realised i still duno abt one thing... is the job asking too much? or haf i expected too little of the job?
today an unhappy incident happened during work.. juz returned from my dinner break, n i was informed that my TL came when i went out for dinner to tell the others to inform me that i needa pack some boxes of pears... before i went for dinner, i completed packing another kind of pear n i went for dinner thinking i got nth to do liao.. den i came back to noe that i still got this thing to do, so i was rather glad coz it beats having nth to do... but de thing is, i nvr pack those kinds of pears b4... those kinds of pears require another kind of packing, not de usual plastic bag packing i haf done in de past... it has to be packed using some called hi-wrap if i'm not wrong... it's those kind of packing u see where stuff r placed on a styrofoam tray n de whole thing is wrapped using some thin transparent plastic sheet thingy... u shld get wad i mean.. if not i oso duno how describe le...
but of coz i tot it would be easy, as it's not de first time i'm using hi-wrap.. i used it b4 to pack strawberries n grapes, n those attempts haf been quite successful... but today de machine was different from last time i used coz de thing is hard to pull out to wrap de thing, n when i used too much force, de plastic sheet will snap.. at first i struggled wif it, den an auntie saw n came to demo.. she did admit that it's a bit harder to pull out than b4, perhaps coz de thing is juz 're-filled', where a new roll of plastic sheet is used.. although she admitted that, she still can work normally, wrapping each tray of pears fast n efficiently.. so i tot it shld be fine for me, but i still cant figure how she managed to do it so cleanly, whereas for my case it's either de plastic sheet dun stick to de tray, or de plastic sheet juz refuses to move, or it juz snap n i needa fix de whole thing... de auntie sort of realises my struggle n so she took a couple of boxes of pears to wrap herself, so that we can complete de workload... n so she carried de boxes to de 'other room'... i say de 'other room' coz actually inside our workplace it's a rather big place, so for my case it's that i work in one area, while de aunties carried de boxes to another area, but de 2 areas r linked, no walls...
so as i continued wif my struggle wif de machine, i heard a couple of phrases from the other area where de other two aunties are.. one of coz is wrapping de pears using another machine, while another is cutting veggie... de phrases i overheard include "ask him/her to pack de veggie i cut lor", "even the malay newboy is faster than him/her", "i told him/her to pack them liao, but he/she say those can wait" etc.. i used a lot of he/she n him/her becoz de aunties speak in chinese n de chinese he n she sound de same, so i cant be sure which they referring to...
of de 3 phrases i mentioned above, i heard them in this order... when i heard de first 2, i tot they were referring to me, explanation being that for de first phrase, de auntie cutting de veg muz haf heard that i'm struggling wif de hi-wrap n so was wanting me to switch to sth i could do a bit faster.. de 2nd phrase being that i'm one of de 2 new boys in this department, de other new boy is a malay guy who came to work only last wk.. i tink she cant be saying that this new boy is faster than the other permanent workers in this section ba... but when i heard de 3rd one, i saw no link of it wif me, so i told myself i cant be that pessimistic n paranoid n that they cant be talking abt me behind my back, so i concentrate back to de stupid hi-wrap...
let's fast forward to 10pm, when i went to help an auntie from de frozen department.. she's an auntie whom i knew from my first wk at work n she's one of my few colleagues whom i talk to quite some bit... i helped her wif de 'curtains' at de dairy there when she went to pay for de stuff she bought 2day... den i went wif her to get de trolley containing de covers required to cover de fridges in de frozen department... as we were pushing de trolley to de frozen fridges, she told me sth which sort of implied that de 2 aunties i mentioned earlier may be indeed talking abt me... this auntie from de frozen said "sometimes at de fruits n veggie there we haf to work faster, coz we needa clear a lot of boxes of goods sometimes".. n de thing is, this auntie went to help in de fruits n veggie department earlier on 2day, coz de amt of fruits n veggie 2day was really quite a lot... so i figured that she may haf heard de other aunties talking abt me earlier on ba...
was rather demoralised after that... felt really like a burden to de department, especially when i haf already worked there for more than 1 month n i'm considered to be this useless... i mentioned in my previous post that i was excited at de possible challenge of me alone in de fruits n veggie department for today for 3 hrs from 2 to 5... b4 today, i really felt that 2day would be a gd time to see how fast i can be, how much i haf learnt so far, n how i can manage such a big situation... however, de challenge didnt happen as my TL seemed to haf realise that i'm alone n so ask another auntie to switch her off day from today to tml..
now on hindsight, mayb it's a wise decision from my TL ba... i guess i wont be able to handle such a situation alone, even though today de crowd isnt really considered to be big... de aunties r much more experienced, n if they feel that i'm not even as gd as a new guy who's only in for a wk, i guess i'm really that bad n useless... now i seriously feel that i'm not cut out for this job n wish to juz gif up... but to quit now seems to be an irresponsible act, as i myself noe that we still lack ppl at times when de crowd is big, n wif cny coming, de workload would juz increase... i guess mayb i'll juz change my decision of working till mid of march to working till end of feb ba...
some time back, de 'main' auntie of de afternoon shift was saying she heard abt me having no smiles in de morning shift... it's rather true that time, coz i wasnt really enjoying morning shifts... today after work, that was no smiles from me either, coz knowing that u urself is a burden isnt exactly a happy thing ba... mayb as wad de army ppl say, i better 'wake up my bloody ideas'...
now my only consoles of each day is that i can watch de 7pm n 9pm channel 8 shows... it's been a long time since i last watched local productions, n i feel that these 2 shows r not bad... but de bad thing is tml is start of weekends, meaning no these shows until monday =/ sad sia...
last but not least, i muz rmb to remain de comedian i wanna be...
real tired from my job...
been working more than a month, but today i realised i still duno abt one thing... is the job asking too much? or haf i expected too little of the job?
today an unhappy incident happened during work.. juz returned from my dinner break, n i was informed that my TL came when i went out for dinner to tell the others to inform me that i needa pack some boxes of pears... before i went for dinner, i completed packing another kind of pear n i went for dinner thinking i got nth to do liao.. den i came back to noe that i still got this thing to do, so i was rather glad coz it beats having nth to do... but de thing is, i nvr pack those kinds of pears b4... those kinds of pears require another kind of packing, not de usual plastic bag packing i haf done in de past... it has to be packed using some called hi-wrap if i'm not wrong... it's those kind of packing u see where stuff r placed on a styrofoam tray n de whole thing is wrapped using some thin transparent plastic sheet thingy... u shld get wad i mean.. if not i oso duno how describe le...
but of coz i tot it would be easy, as it's not de first time i'm using hi-wrap.. i used it b4 to pack strawberries n grapes, n those attempts haf been quite successful... but today de machine was different from last time i used coz de thing is hard to pull out to wrap de thing, n when i used too much force, de plastic sheet will snap.. at first i struggled wif it, den an auntie saw n came to demo.. she did admit that it's a bit harder to pull out than b4, perhaps coz de thing is juz 're-filled', where a new roll of plastic sheet is used.. although she admitted that, she still can work normally, wrapping each tray of pears fast n efficiently.. so i tot it shld be fine for me, but i still cant figure how she managed to do it so cleanly, whereas for my case it's either de plastic sheet dun stick to de tray, or de plastic sheet juz refuses to move, or it juz snap n i needa fix de whole thing... de auntie sort of realises my struggle n so she took a couple of boxes of pears to wrap herself, so that we can complete de workload... n so she carried de boxes to de 'other room'... i say de 'other room' coz actually inside our workplace it's a rather big place, so for my case it's that i work in one area, while de aunties carried de boxes to another area, but de 2 areas r linked, no walls...
so as i continued wif my struggle wif de machine, i heard a couple of phrases from the other area where de other two aunties are.. one of coz is wrapping de pears using another machine, while another is cutting veggie... de phrases i overheard include "ask him/her to pack de veggie i cut lor", "even the malay newboy is faster than him/her", "i told him/her to pack them liao, but he/she say those can wait" etc.. i used a lot of he/she n him/her becoz de aunties speak in chinese n de chinese he n she sound de same, so i cant be sure which they referring to...
of de 3 phrases i mentioned above, i heard them in this order... when i heard de first 2, i tot they were referring to me, explanation being that for de first phrase, de auntie cutting de veg muz haf heard that i'm struggling wif de hi-wrap n so was wanting me to switch to sth i could do a bit faster.. de 2nd phrase being that i'm one of de 2 new boys in this department, de other new boy is a malay guy who came to work only last wk.. i tink she cant be saying that this new boy is faster than the other permanent workers in this section ba... but when i heard de 3rd one, i saw no link of it wif me, so i told myself i cant be that pessimistic n paranoid n that they cant be talking abt me behind my back, so i concentrate back to de stupid hi-wrap...
let's fast forward to 10pm, when i went to help an auntie from de frozen department.. she's an auntie whom i knew from my first wk at work n she's one of my few colleagues whom i talk to quite some bit... i helped her wif de 'curtains' at de dairy there when she went to pay for de stuff she bought 2day... den i went wif her to get de trolley containing de covers required to cover de fridges in de frozen department... as we were pushing de trolley to de frozen fridges, she told me sth which sort of implied that de 2 aunties i mentioned earlier may be indeed talking abt me... this auntie from de frozen said "sometimes at de fruits n veggie there we haf to work faster, coz we needa clear a lot of boxes of goods sometimes".. n de thing is, this auntie went to help in de fruits n veggie department earlier on 2day, coz de amt of fruits n veggie 2day was really quite a lot... so i figured that she may haf heard de other aunties talking abt me earlier on ba...
was rather demoralised after that... felt really like a burden to de department, especially when i haf already worked there for more than 1 month n i'm considered to be this useless... i mentioned in my previous post that i was excited at de possible challenge of me alone in de fruits n veggie department for today for 3 hrs from 2 to 5... b4 today, i really felt that 2day would be a gd time to see how fast i can be, how much i haf learnt so far, n how i can manage such a big situation... however, de challenge didnt happen as my TL seemed to haf realise that i'm alone n so ask another auntie to switch her off day from today to tml..
now on hindsight, mayb it's a wise decision from my TL ba... i guess i wont be able to handle such a situation alone, even though today de crowd isnt really considered to be big... de aunties r much more experienced, n if they feel that i'm not even as gd as a new guy who's only in for a wk, i guess i'm really that bad n useless... now i seriously feel that i'm not cut out for this job n wish to juz gif up... but to quit now seems to be an irresponsible act, as i myself noe that we still lack ppl at times when de crowd is big, n wif cny coming, de workload would juz increase... i guess mayb i'll juz change my decision of working till mid of march to working till end of feb ba...
some time back, de 'main' auntie of de afternoon shift was saying she heard abt me having no smiles in de morning shift... it's rather true that time, coz i wasnt really enjoying morning shifts... today after work, that was no smiles from me either, coz knowing that u urself is a burden isnt exactly a happy thing ba... mayb as wad de army ppl say, i better 'wake up my bloody ideas'...
now my only consoles of each day is that i can watch de 7pm n 9pm channel 8 shows... it's been a long time since i last watched local productions, n i feel that these 2 shows r not bad... but de bad thing is tml is start of weekends, meaning no these shows until monday =/ sad sia...
last but not least, i muz rmb to remain de comedian i wanna be...
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