all of a sudden, i have decided to come update again, despite de last update only some days ago... haizz, prelims starting in the day after tml.. 1st day damn xiong le, econs paper 3 wif GP, really tough sia.. and to worsen stuff, i havent started on the revision of econs.. now quite stressed? mayb it's stress ba, coz i really feel that i wont haf time tml to really revise econs wif GP properly.. really dun wan to fail GP again liao.. neither do i wan to sacrifice econs for GP.. actually wad to 'study' for GP de? read thru de articles i haf collected? or read thru de vocab words and hope to remember and throw some into essay and AQ? anyway to read thru ALL the newspaper articles is definitely impossible, wif the time constraint i face tml.. that would mean i need to pick topics again, which is something i dun like to do... i dun like de idea of choosing, but wif time constraint, it's either gamble, choose and specialise, or become a jack of all trades... econs oso need to choose and specialise, according to puay san, which is oso something i havent really done... i only noe i hafta choose role of govt, the rest is really up to me... mayb become jack of all trades ba, since i haf been like that anyway... all these suddenly bring to a point..

why the heck m i still here when i'm facing a lack of time to revise my work for the opening day of prelims?

actually i oso cant really ans the above qn.. juz cant find the drive to start revision.. i would even rather take out slam dunk comics to read, and not study... mayb it's becoz of my habit to only study the day b4 the exam/test? duno la... damn frustrated now oso... mouth full of pain, cant eat, cant talk, cant brush teeth... really dulan... oso quite sian ah, juz wanna say that i tink i wont do well in prelims oso cannot.. like full of restrictions like that... if i say den if my results are not bad den ppl will tink i always like to fake ppl that i nvr mug while mugging like siao at home... suan le, let's juz hope my prelims wont turn out to be a disaster...

now officially 1st sept.. happy teachers' day!! hehe, kinda weird to say that here, as if any of my teachers knows of this place like that... actually i hope they know, so i can pass this message to them.. had a chance to go back andss 2day, but duno y, mayb it's de rain or i was juz too cold-blooded, that i decided not to go back.. mayb it's that i dun have this habit of going back to old sch ba.. when in sec sch oso nvr go back pri sch, coz most of my teachers retired liao, and i was so so low-profile back then in pri sch, so de teachers i knew there were few in the 1st place le.. so mayb it now leads to me dun haf to habit to go back andss, although there are many teachers there i wanna see and chat a bit with, but i'm not that vocal and not that close with them last time anyway..

now it leads me to thinking if i will go back to aj after graduating.. heard from yilong who heard from his stajeworks teacher that ms tang's gonna retire this year.. that makes 1 less teacher i know in aj.. if i really go back den most likely i will juz find ms ng ba, coz at least she's de one i talked most crap with.. lolol.. but at least muz have gd A's result for econs 1st, den got face go back see her =X

anyway, as 2day/yesterday (31th august) is teachers' day celebration, it was sort of some kind of last day of sch in aj le.. coz term 4 straight away is 2 wks of prelims den after that is juz go back take prelims papers and tink graduation assembly liao.. 2day got that weird weird feeling again on the way back home and while at home... the weird feeling that occurred 2 years ago, on last day of sch in andss.. it's a feeling that is a mixture of regrets, relunctance to let go and sadness... i dun like changes in life, but they are inevitable, part of lives, but despite me existing on Earth for 18.5 yrs liao, i still havent learn how to embrace them.. but 08 nvr really merge as a class, as there are still invisible divides between different groups of people, although in daily class life it appears as if everyone is ok with each other.. this will make any possible 0805 class gathering in future even harder le, with these divides and in addition guys in NS.. i really dun like the idea of losing contact with the 08 people, like wad happened to most of my andss frens, where gd frens in sch can almost or totally lose contact after graduation...

i sound as though i have juz attended the graduation nite like that... now is not the time for that anyway.. still got prelims n big A's coming up.. even the antarcticans are all getting into gears and ready to start mugging liao lor... i guess i shall juz stick to my usual self ba, living juz for the day, or as the chinese say, 'walk one step look the next step'.

even going online is becoming so sian for me le la... 2day came home early, den use com oso can use till sian one, den start doing de vj prelim paper.. how to survive the coming sept hols sia...

financial econs - high risk high gain, low risk low gain... this is so so true, not even in financial econs but oso in real life... should i throw away the coward me from 2 yrs ago and juz risk it and possibly lose everything? or shld i remain as that coward and juz enjoy the low gain and prevent me from getting 'bankrupt'? .......