wad's his problem sia... so wad if she wanna goes 2day? is it a crime for someone to go to her sis's house to see her sis's new-born granddaughter? we all noe u haf work 2day, n sunday is ur rest day... so does it mean all activities shld fall on ur rest day? wad does it mean by 'cannot go tml meh? y muz go 2day?' i mean, since it's already decided, and we all noe that even if u go, u will juz stone there.. so might as well dun go even better ba, go liao oso spoil everyone's moods... oso, her reason of 'coz 2day my sis(another one) is free, so we can go together' is very valid, n de reasoning is oso very clear, that the 3 sisters can gather together to chat n share the joy.. but i really dun understand y u will see it the other way... seeing it that coz she can go there in her sis's car... we all oso noe that u got that very big car la, and that her sis's car isn't de only one left on Earth, but y muz u keep emphasizing the fact that u got that bloody car? i guess the only reason is that u r too narrow-minded, thinking that u r not welcomed, although sadly, i muz say that ur thinking is indeed very true... and pls, can u f*cking not vent ur anger by scolding our nice neighbours behind their backs? n it's juz becoz they live in the corner unit n sometimes close n open their door n some sounds were created as a result... oh ya, not to forget u added some vulgar comments inside too...

... vented some frustrations inside me... i often feel like a weakling, unable to go up front against him, haf to resort to this kind of stupid crap... this sux....

there's some charity show on 2nite, for the cancer patients.. as usual, there's some 'pro' person in the living room yet again, trying to explain how some stunts work... well, as quoted from miss tang, that's some 'backseat driver'.. she was quite right on fri, when a couple of my class people were trying to open some dvd on miss tang's laptop, and there were so many people in the class who were like some laptop manuals, giving 'instructions', but didn't realise they were trying to open that dvd using their mouths.. lolol...

ok, that's real random... juz happen that this is happening now.. recently, eating has become real 'interesting' for me.. lol.. it's juz that my mother decides to haf a dicussion wif me abt some real random issues when it happens that me n she r eating at de same time... juz yesterday, we talked abt 'paths in life'.. it juz happened that i said i haf chosen a path le, and she decides that i'm still not old enough and this path isn't really i haf taken... she juz feels that my thinking is a little wrong, but den as i feel and said, paths ain't right or wrong... let's not go extreme, and talk abt two paths, namely whether to kill someone or not... obviously one is quite wrong... in the very 1st place, right or wrong is a pretty subjective thingy, one person may feel that this path isn't right, and another may feel otherwise... but den, i do understand that one's thinking will change over the years, as one grows older, but that doesn't really mean that my thinking now is wrong... actually, i really enjoy watching 'feng mian ren wu' and watch many artists talk abt their lives, and i feel it really benefits quite a bit, as i can look from more perspectives and learn some stuff from people older...

hmm.. forgot wad i wanna blog abt le... anyway still got pw stuff to do.. =/ pw is ever so sian, and i'm totally unsure of wad to do...

a rain lasted the whole afternoon today... sure, it had been cooling for us, some would say it's a nice weather in have a good nap, but i saw it in a different manner though... several birds came to the ledges or the plants outside my house unit.. and as i listened to their cries, i wondered how many nests were flooded, damaged, or even destroyed by the strong rain during early afternoon.. wad r their cries for? cheering for the cool surroundings brought by the rain after a period of hot weather? or blaming nature for being so destructive? well, i guess for everything, there's always both sides to it.. wherever there's light, there will be shadow.. well, juz a random thought..

there's a saying.. with greater hope, there will be greater disappointment... hmm.. so no hope = no disappointment? this seems to be a cause n effect thingy, eliminate the cause, so that de effect won't happen.. i kinda enjoy watching jap dramas, n reading manga, coz most of them r pretty optimistic in nature, and there will be some quotes which r worth remembering, as some sort of 'values of life', i feel... i guess de reason i enjoy these becoz the optimism in these sort of fill that empty space in my heart ba.. the space which is labelled 'optimism/hope'... i haf been a pretty pessimistic person since birth, which i feel that is a thing which i shldn't haf, coz it leads to many other lousy traits of me... however, as de saying goes, 'environment can be changed easily, but it's difficult to change one's character', character can't really be changed as easily as it's said.. but den i seem 2 haf changed a little recently, with that bit of hope in life... however, as i've said above, hope leads to disappointment, and unfortunately, i experienced disappointment which proved that my previous beliefs were rite.. lolol.. one round n it's back to the original thingy.. still wondering abt de origin of that bit of hope.. is it becoz i've integrated 0805 a little bit more le, becoz i started to believe in the optimistic stuff brought up in the dramas n manga, or due to my peers? but den, i guess no point in finding out anyway, i haf turned back to my old beliefs liao anyway..

life has been pretty boring during promos period, wif all de studying n stuff etc.. but den life after promos has not become better though.. everyday pw n pw, so sian... -_- tml get back papers le.. at least it is a break from all the pw stuff.. still got oral presentation coming up in nov.. damn sian.. haizzz, i guess that's life for me...