really tired now... but nvm, let's update... monday... yong ming's last day at ajc... he had decided 2 apply for ngee ann poly, and the application was successful... he went back to aj to get signatures from various teachers in order to withdraw from sch successfully... dun ask me y, it's pretty crap... anyway, although he's not likely 2 see this, but i'll still like 2 wish him all the best in his future... he's really a great guy, my 1st real fren in the new ppl of 08/05... had great fun playing cards wif him... tuesday, oso forgot wad happened that day le... den wed morning woke up at 2.30am to watch de match between ac milan n psv... it kinda concluded one thing... it's that it's de final score that matters, not the quality of the both sides... psv played real good in the 2nd half lor, can say to be outplaying milan, but yet milan still scored their 2nd goal in the dying minutes of 2nd half... unfair sia... wed, got PS after sch... but was real crap lor, it started at 2.35pm, but i waited till like 3 plus den i went, 2gether wif chee wei... coz my grp de guys, jian qi need 2 plan for the j1 PDG phototaking thingy, cheewei got council stuff, zixian waiting for his aj idol ticket, den i go PS oso will be quite sian, so instead i watched a bit of tennis, AJ vs MI (i tink), den later went to PS wif chee wei lor... in de end my grp de girls helped us to write de names for the choosing of de specialist team... we were in de team, studio, den we learnt quite a bit of stuff abt taking photos in studio, and a little bit about taking photos at concerts... thurs morning woke up at 2.30am yet again.. this time watched chelsea vs liverpool... chelsea's finishing was real lousy lah, and de only real chance i saw was de baros' header, which cech produced a stunning save to prevent the ball from going into the net... pretty boring, coz it was mainly a tactical battle, liverpool holding firm... so i did my gp essay during the half time and oso during a part of the 2nd half... thursday, morning got napfa test.. all were fine, except for pull-up... did 3, but 1 not counted coz de teacher said i swinged too much, so only got 2, so failed lor... heck lah, june come back lor, at least can get 2 train, if not den i oso will lack de motivation 2 go train on my own... den afternoon got track and field meet... den cheerleading section, tink is the cheetah house, got 1 guy damn pro lor... he somersaulted a few times, those kinds of somersaults in midair one, and he did de somersaults very slowly, so he looked damn cool lor... den towards de end of the meet got the tug of war between de teachers n de students.. damn crap lah, first try the rope snapped, so got rematch... den the rematch the rope snapped again, so in de end oso didn't haf a real match of tug of war... in de end cheetah house won de overall house champion... it was damn obvious even b4 de meet started lor... b4 the meet, cheetah house had already won 20 gold for the completed events, and the next house was no way near that... friday... really sian lah, physics i dun understand a single bit about dynamics lor... i look at de tutorial all i oso dunno how do... dun say tutorial lor, i see the notes oso dun understand liao... den after sch went for pw meeting, coz de 1st draft of de group project proposal needs 2 be handed in on tues... lucky after re-grouping (coz yong ming left, so his grp left 3 ppl, den these 3 ppl split to 3 different grps), our grp got lily.. real good lah, our grp from hopeless case becomes a grp wif hope liao lor... coz lily damn hardworking one, so it's likely she will push de grp along.. but during the meeting 2day realised that she is a pretty easily tensed up person.. do stuff muz quickly finish, kinda like takes things too hard le... like die-die oso muz finish all the stuff on hand... anyway, we were in de reading room, den juz after our meeting, den band ppl came in and asked us 2 leave the reading room coz the band wanted 2 use de room for their practices... as we were leaving, den there was this girl who became to shift the tables to one side, so that the band ppl can sit together in the middle of the room.. but wad's her problems lah? she damn bu shuang, purposely dragged the table damn hard 2 let it hit the wall so hard that it made a loud bang... wad's she trying 2 do? showing her authority or wad? we were packing our stuff lor, and her face was like saying 'disappear from my sight right at this second or else i'll bang ur heads against the wall like the table'... kao bei! den 2day supposed 2 hand in econs essay by 5pm... didn't do beforehand, so started only 2day... den finally finished it on de dot sia, at close to 5pm, tink by de time i put in de pigeon hole already passed 5pm a bit liao... did de essay pretty hastily, so shld be some sub-standard work lor... prepare to be 'blasted' by puay san le.. den went 2 watch de aj idol finals... de performance was not bad, pretty nice... den de audience got 2 vote for the best in the solo category, best in the group category, and oso de aj idol... den pretty surprisingly, de one who won de best in the solo category didn't turn out 2 be de aj idol, instead it was another guy... den reached home pretty late le, 10 plus le... now tired sia, got 3 days break ahead, muz make gd use, got lots of hw need 2 do...

-____-" chuan jian, my blog n ur blog same leh, both oso talk abt our lives mah... wad crapping and out of point? urs is real good lor, in addition, a big plus plus factor is that ur blog is updated everyday lor... and each entry is so long... shows that u got a far more interesting life than me.. mine oso nth much lah, juz a little summary abt my life only mah, nth much nice or sincere lah... i'll try 2 update more lah, but no time like that leh =/

this week is a real tiring week... first of all, this week started off wif a big surprise... apparently some guy, who claimed 2 be from aj in 1st intake, said that i was a flirt in aj... wad a joke.. lone wolf a flirt?! this guy claimed that he recognised me, and he's not from my class one, which i feel is damn crap lor... strongly believe this guy dunno me lor, anyhow say stuff that is not true... but i oso heck lah, 2 tink abt this thing is a total waste of time and energy lor... i got much better stuff 2 tink abt, like tutorials (-__-")... den tuesday ended at 5pm, wif pe the last period... got lim kok wee (dunno spelling correct anot) as afternoon pe teacher... his circuit training damn fierce lor... run 1 round 2 min, den do stationary trainings, den immediately haf 2 run another round 2 min again... total of 5 sets, after that i'm dying le... wed was cca day... j1 PDG phototaking shld be on week 8, and j1 PS members are taking charge.. that day practised how 2 arrange ppl quickly, and learnt abt wad to do and wad not 2 do for PDG phototaking.. as some members were practising, the rest of the PS members haf 2 act as the students taking PDG photo... and the afternoon sun was shining directly at us, and it was damn hot, everyone's sweating like mad lor.... thursday, shld be the day which i would get 2 go home the earliest... but decided 2 go to sajc wif ty and kang to watch soccer games... met chinhwee, amanda, clarissa and sangita there... not forgetting edwin who representing ij... watched the game between ij and sajc... in de end sajc won 4-0... den went harbourfront centre 2 eat dinner wif ty n kang, b4 going home... friday, got PS outing... went to esplanade.. reached there 5 plus le, den took a couple of pics here n there... went for dinner at around 7 plus at marina square... by the time the PS eating at marina square finished their dinner, it was close to 9 le... den we moved to merlion there, to meet up wif the other grp of PS... heard from a j2 who's looking after the bags there that the other grps quite a few ppl left le, only left a few ppl from each grp... only my grp all the members remained... 7 came 7 still remained.. den took a few pics there, den the others of my grp wanted 2 go le, so we all left 2gether lor, at around 10 plus... den reached home at close to 12 yesterday... den watched tv, used com, den finally slept at around 1.30am... 2day woke up wif a big headache sia... realised that it's 2 pm liao... -___-" guess i haf slept too long le, so headache.. den ate lunch, and den watched 'golden bowl' from 2.30 to 4.30... stupid lah, 2day is my mugging day one lor... haven't touched a single thing of my hw... monday still got physics test lor, tml supposed 2 study for it one, so 2day muz do the hw one... sian leh, still got headache now leh, how tink??? tink i try do as much maths 2day 1st, den leave the gp for tml or monday...

it's gonna be de end of this week liao... let's see... friday... canteen closed at 2.30pm, coz got some elementz thingy lah, some science exhibition, i tink... so, went out to de coffeeshop near ben's hse there, which is quite a distance from aj lah... went wif gl, but as he pointed out, it's actually not very far... seems like we r too used to anderson sec liao, where food can be found juz across de road... we went at around 3, when i had my PS meeting at 3.35pm... after returning to sch, it's already 3.45 liao... den i went around de sch to find the venue... after walking 2 rounds around blk 11, cw called me to tell me de room... went there 2 find that there's still a lot of ppl in PS... -___- anyway we were grouped into grps of 6 or 7 or 8, den need 2 plan 4 de PDG phototaking stuff lah... need 2 see the breaks of de PDGs, need 2 tink of the venue, tink of de pricings, tink of many stuff lah... den finally each grp has to gif a presentation of wad they thought of... de idea of the j2s to haf these problem-solving meetings on fri is 2 identify the exco members... but i seriously doubt that they can identify from all these lor, especially when there are like 40 plus ppl... anyway. after that meeting ended, went out to find many ppl waiting outside audi for the start of aj idol... oso met teehong, who came 2 watch oso... chatted wif him a bit about tj... den oso met han sheng, my primary sch fren, who was oso in aj for 1st 3 mths, den now in SA... talked to him a bit abt SA, and it seems like he's kinda regretting that he didn't choose aj, coz it seems like he chose nj 2gether wif his fren as 1st choice but his fren entered he didn't...

yesterday, saturday... woke up at 7, den went back to slp again, den when i woke up again, i tot it's 10 plus, only 2 be shocked when i put on my specs and realised that it's noon liao... i had slept for a full 11 hrs lor... oh great, 1 whole morning gone... den quickly showered and den watched 'goals' and premier league preview... after that went do physics tutorial... kinematics really has a lot of formulas lor, need 2 keep referring 2 de notes... sian ah, physics test coming up liao lor, how 2 remember?! anyway, den went watch 'golden bowl'... den after watching that for 2 hrs, was preparing to get back 2 de tutorial, but stayed 2 watch the next show, the talkshow which was a repeat of that shown on fri nite.... after that den i went continue my physics tutorial... after completing (actually i didn't, coz last qn my ans different from de given one), went online again... chatted wif yu xuan, my og fren from 1st 3 mths who's now at nj... she talked quite a lot abt her life now, and the chat wif her made me realise how amazing fate is... u may be looking at 2 frens, tot that they haf nth 2 do wif each other, but actually unknown to u, they r related in an indirect way... anyway, chatted wif her for 1 hr plus, b4 we both had 2 go for our dinners, so it ended at 8... was doing curves tutorial at nite yesterday, did only 2 qns den i was almost knocked out le... couldn't believe it lor, slept 11 hrs de previous day, den yesterday 10.30pm wan slp liao... anyway i went slp le, only 2 wake up at 6 this morning, den went back to slp again, b4 waking up at 9.30.... still tons of hw left, shouldn't haf watched tv so much yesterday, 2day accumulated so many hw le...

amazing fate~~

juz been 2 jasmen's blog... feels that his blog damn zai lor... no, i'm not referring to de layout of his blog (actually his blogskin same as mine, not really considered as nice).. anyway, i'm referring to his recent entries, about de goals he has set for himself... the entries seem as though he's 'enlightened' by sth (although i dunno if he's really enlightened anot, i juz guessing here), but, one thing i'm sure of, is that i'm enlightened by his blog, these recent entries... wif all the goals set, each wif 7 parts of stuff like motivation, desire etc, i guess jasmen really wans to be that winner... jiayou ba! wishing jasmen all de best... u can do it one... (although i doubt jasmen does come to here)

anyway, moving on to me, life rite now is pretty much routined... everyday it will be hw, net and one tv programme, but that hw part is kinda taxing lor... pretty sian in sch oso lah... everyone in their respective classes haf different dismissal times, and r more or less involved in their own stuff liao, so it's kinda all new environment and stuff like that... for me stuff r pretty much more school-based stuff lor, like juz attending lectures, tutorials and cca in sch lor, apart from that i usually dun haf nth 2 do during those free times... went photographic society yesterday, it was 2 start at 2.30, so b4 that i was like juz walking around inside aj mindlessly ba... but considering that aj is kinda small, so i had walked for many rounds, and i guess the people in aj will feel very weird when they saw this guy walking past so many times... anyway, at PS, it's still many many ppl there lor... at the end of yesterday's meeting, de president and teacher-in-charge oso openly said that the resources at PS cannot support such big number of j1s (50-plus, they said one), and so they were calling for ppl to not join PS if they already haf another cca le, or they r not willing 2 be committed to PS... dunno how many will go lah, but i hope many will, coz me myself oso dun wan so many ppl lor... anyway tml will haf another PS meeting, heard that it's about de planning for the PDG photo taking which will be later this term... heard that PS j1s may be in charge of taking de photos of the j1 PDG classes, sounds kinda fun, but dunno if i will get 2 take anot...

pretty much 2 review abt myself after 2day at sch... take things too hard liao, and too rash le... haizz, my new year resolutions include getting rid of these 2 problems of mine... hmmm, seems like i really need 2 get sth done abt my character le, it's almost 4 months into the new year le, but i still feel like de old me, need 2 change myself 4 de better quickly... 2 stuff to learn from 2day... firstly, use brain 1st b4 doing anything... dun be too rash 2 decide sth, and in de end harm another person, when de person who shld be harmed is me myself... secondly, it's a new environment, when u dun haf any real good frens yet, dun treat them as if they r ur real good frens le, it's anderson jc here, no more anderson sec...

Nvr update for quite a while liao.. let’s see… april le.. jc life finally reaching its fast pace le… hw keep coming in, piling up, especially maths… and the prob of the rapidly growing mountain of hw is not helped by having an econs teacher who believes strongly in ‘jiao bu yan, shi zhi guo’ (direct translation: it’s de teacher’s fault if he/she isn’t strict) miss Ng PS… first thing she said to us was, ‘i’m a very demanding and persistent person’ next, she gave each of us a card 2 write stuff like name, sec sch, greatest achievement to date, target uni and blah blah blah… den she called 1 person 2 repeat wad she said, and den called another person 2 repeat wad the first person said.. and finally she called another 2 persons 2 point out the differences between wad the first 2 persons said… differences include sequences of the stuff, and stuff like de differences of ‘target uni’ and ‘desired uni’.. she oso enforces sch rules in her class… one thing she said which I felt was interesting was about the problem of guys having too long sleeves… she told us 2 amend the sleeves over the weekends if they are too long, and oso added that if anyone has no one at home who can amend, that guy can bring a sewing machine, threads and stuff like that to sch on Monday, so she can help that person amend…

Enough of miss ng le… now let’s talk about channel u… after all the changes, I feel that channel u now becomes not very good liao.. for example, de 7.30pm to 8.30pm slot of weekdays, y they wan 2 show 2 dramas at the same time?? One is shown on mon and tues, while de other is shown on de rest of the week.. suay suay I watch the former one.. so after watching 2 episodes I haf 2 wait till next week 2 watch again, which is such a long wait lor.. anyway, if u dunno which show I’m referring to, it’s that japan drama abt pilots, planes and stuff like that… if u still dunno den I oso dunno how describe liao…

Yesterday got morning pe… lucky got mr koh again… ran 7 rounds… recently rainy season, I haven’t gone for a run at the stadium for like 2 to 3 weeks liao lor, den yesterday ran till almost couldn’t make it… de others (de Antarctica ppl) said b4 that my running method is very weird, it’s ‘hopping’ instead of ‘running’… I oso nvr see myself run b4, so I dunno wad they mean… dunno if it’s becoz of my running method, but during de fifth round like that my back started 2 pain… 2day back still pain, while legs oso tired…

Yesterday oso went watch ‘house of fury’… overall I feel that it’s not bad lor… the fighting scenes some r a bit fake lah, but for this kind of movie, the fighting is not de main point… den some parts really funny lor… can say shld be quite worth it lah…

Yesterday went home, only 2 find printer spoilt liao… actually not say it’s spoilt lah, it’s juz that data cannot be transferred from de main com to the printer, so it dunno wad 2 print mah, so cannot print lor… den the computer speed oso crawls at a speed of… eh.. slower than a wooden horse… a wooden horse cannot even move at all, so I tink u can understand how ‘fast’ is my com speed liao…

During f maths tutorial, mr quek asked if anyone has prior experience of choir b4, and even asked de whole class to go for a little audition 2 see who’s suitable for choir… seems like choir is seriously lacking ppl for the SYF this year… but it’s dumb n stupid lor… he didn’t even ask if we interested anot, he juz called everyone go… cannot force one mah…

Sick liao... -_______-" been having minor sore throat for around 1 week liao… den after 2 consecutive mornings of waking up at 2.30am (wed and thurs to watch soccer matches), plus the fact that now I dun bring water 2 sch liao, so I rarely drink water in sch, causing my sore throat 2 worsen yesterday, becoming cough… den 2day two ‘frens’ of cough came too… they are fever and flu.. these 3 frens always come 2gether one lor.. damn sick now… long long time nvr sick liao…

It seems like 08/05 is starting 2 bond as a class a bit liao… at least the ppl of different cliques are starting 2 talk 2 each other a bit more now… but for me… I’m still that lone wolf lah.. I guess de frens I haf in 08 are those from old 08 ba.. but we mostly talk during f maths tutorial only, coz only de old 08 take f maths mah.. other than that, I guess I rarely talk 2 anyone, a quite silent, insignificant and unknown person in class lor.. at times chris or Xavier do chat wif me, I’m really grateful for that, but they oso got their new frens in class mah, so it’s not really very often.. not that they dun welcome me or anti me lah, I guess… it’s juz that I’m not a really sociable person, so me anti myself lor… seems like I still need a lot of time 2 mix into 08…

my parents juz returned, from their tomb-sweeping from malaysia... sibei sian ah!! of the 2 sets of uniforms, the 4 stuff of 2 pants n 2 shirts, my mother only 'passed' 1... which is the shirt of size 14.5... den 2 pants of sizes 31 n 32 need 2 be changed to 29, while the shirt of 15 need 2 be changed to 14.5... sian leh, how come buying uniforms is such a hard chore?! 4 days involved... 1st day nvr bring $$, 2nd day shop closed le, 3rd day bought it, 4th day, which will be tml, haf 2 change them... haizzzz... oso, i'm supposed 2 photocopy my o level result slip by last fri one, but forgot, den over the long weekends still forget, now i haf 2 rush 2 photocopy it tml.. but knowing that the photocopying services in sch are damn crowded nowadays due to many ppl rushing to photocopy notes from 1st intake, it will be damn stupid to wait a long time juz 2 photocopy a small result slip... and wad was i doing 2day? watching tv n doing tutorials, when i could go to the bookshop somewhere 2 photocopy the slip... i would rather do tutorials in sch den wait a long time 2 photocopy a small thing in sch... speaking of doing tutorials, 2day was the 1st time, since god knows how long ago liao, when i did my tutorials at home...

haizzz, an entry juz for me 2 vent my frustrations n anger over myself for being such a bloody forgetful n useless person that i cannot even buy 2 sets of fitting uniforms and remember 2 photocopy sth... DAMN IT!!! DAMN ME!!!

let's see... this week juz pass like that lor... temporary lectures and talks filled this week... the new 08/05 reminds me of old 3/1 (2003)... divided into cliques, the old 08 ppl plus the 2 new girls (well, there's only 5 gals, so the 2 new girls haf 2 mix wif the 3 old ones), the repeat ppl plus 2 of their frens, den the others... mainly it's these 3 cliques... my 2nd PDG tutor, aka sort of form teacher like that one, noticed this and told us 2 eliminate this negative energy in the class, and that only positive energy in the class can help everyone in the class, no matter academically or mentally or wadever... but i tink a bit hard lah, haf 2 see how de new 08/05 progresses... as it's temporary lectures week, everyone wif de same subject goes 2 the same places... so i still kinda mostly hang around wif the andersonians, namely gl and winglok most of the time, den sometimes add zhihao in lor... cca carnival was on wed, and i chose photographic society yet again... bought uniform yesterday, me kind of weird, all buy different sizes one... 2 shirts, one 14.5 one 15, 2 pants, one 31, one 32... even de guy who's at the counter there seemed kinda surprised that i picked all different sizes one... yesterday was 1st april, but no one quite remembered that it was april fool yesterday.. not much pranks i saw, except for once, in de canteen where 1 girl fell for the 'de tomato sauce feels warm' prank... for tues, wed, thurs, dunno y very tired after reaching home, went 2 slp very early, at 9, 8.30, 9 respectively.. den yesterday slept at 12am... irregular sleeping pattern sia, dunno y... oso, my parents went to malaysia for 'qing ming'.. 2day was raining at noon, den go out very mah fan, in de end didn't have lunch... -_-" dumb lor, skipped lunch becoz of rain.... anyway, 2day actually got old 08 outing one, but as usual, it was cancelled, due 2 poor response... actually i dun mind go for it lah, but they wanna go orchard, den heard that cineleisure dun haf house of fury, which is a movie i wanna watch, but anyway de outing was cancelled... in de end, sat in front of tv in de afternoon watching recorded shows, namely amazing race and chase, which i missed when i went slp early on those days..

i guess it's like this liao... nth much i can complain abt, coz it was my fault, i was the one who started all these crap, in de end resulted 2 this... shld haf made amendments much much earlier, but now i guess nth i do can change things much liao.. all resulted from my stubbornness, from my unwillingness to give in, from a moment of rashness... watched a show earlier 2day, where 1 person said this, 'i noe if i'm in any trouble or danger, he will jump in 2 my aid within 2 seconds'... mayb in the past this can be true for us, but i guess for now, de 2 of us cannot be like b4 liao... i guess we r juz like acquaintances le, nth much can change that le...