hell lah!!! wad the hell is wrong wif me?!?!?! y m i feeling some weird nowadays?!?! am i tired now? i dunno... SERIOUSLY, i dunno... i feel like i'm in a state of mind that is tired and wanna go sleep le, coz i didn't sleep much yesterday nite, but i oso feel at the same time that my eyes are not tired at all, not heavy, not feeling like wanna close like that, still haf that energy to last till 12am oso can, thus not tired... wad's wrong wif me le... 2005 is definitely not a good year at all for me, since the start of year... like wad my fren said, i'm getting old le... seriously ageing le... i'm beginning 2 lose interest in everything... and i seriously mean EVERYTHING... everything i like and am interested in one are all getting boring for me le... soccer ah.. maths ah.. geog ah.. going 2 sch ah... history of eastern europe ah... and so on and so on... all getting sian for me le...

haizzz, oso see through many things liao le, understand that many things haf 2 be like wad they r now le.... like my easily injured body, my unfixable hand, my gradual loss of fire (passion) for soccer, my won't likely 2 be improved fitness and so on... my only fear is that i may juz explode one of these days... be it explode wif anger, or like suddenly burst in tears.... i dunno, but i may explode any day.... yesterday nite went 2 sleep at 11.30pm, but stayed awake thinking a lot of stupid stuff, till like 12.30am like that, den fell asleep... i tink i oso typed enough in this entry le, stay online oso nothing 2 do lah, only stared into the screen blankly...