death... in one of my 1st few entries, i tink i have talked about death already, so i see no point 2 talk about it again... however, that links me to another thing: memories... everyone has memories, no matter it's good or bad... wad are memories for? to remember stuff? or like wad mr tan teck poh said b4, it's to put 'markers' in ur mind so that u won't commit the same mistakes again? i feel that memories are something like an indication... an indication that a person is still alive... for all we know, after death, we may juz shut-down like computers, becoming numb, mind becoming totally blank... something like going into a sleep wif no dreams, and no one will be able to wake u up... if memories is something like this, den i guess so are feelings too... now, we are able to be happy, sad, angry, frustrated and so on... after death, in the eternal sleep, we may not be able to feel anything at all le... becoming something wif no feeling at all, unable to tink, no longer able to be angry, sad, or even happy... so i guess next time when u wanna forget something bad, or really angry at something or someone, be thankful that u are still alive and still able to have these stuff, coz they cannot be taken for granted, when many others around the world at our age have already lost these stuff....

had wanted to plan something for the class on thurs, which is tml... however, due to too much uncertainties, the plan was aborted... really couldn't believe that the stress still exist within me after the whole chalet thing... thought that the stress will be gone after the chalet, but instead, it's within me, waiting for the next time for it 2 bother me again... but mayb the plan was a good thing, as it made me realise about this stress, and the good thing now is that i have decided to return to my old self, and u, yes u, the one reading this thing right now, will not be able to understand the amount of stress released from me, and it's really a great feeling to return to a... hmmm, can't find a good word for it... mayb a nobody? anyway, being chairman for the last few months in anderson was both good and bad for me... good thing is that i could talk 2 all the ppl in the class, if not, i guess i would not have known more about this great class i had... however, the bad thing is the responsibility and stress that comes along wif it... in the past, only thought that chairman is an easy job to do, only need 2 see teachers, take class key, do admin work... but it was after i became one when i realised how tough it was to be one... wif great powers come great responsibility, i tink this is true, although i tink it's only half true for me (coz i tink i never had any great powers b4, lol) something i never experienced b4 becoming the chairman, even in montfort pri, where i was the prefect, i belonged to the 'outlaw' types... at that time, prefects need 2 wear ties, indicating that they are prefects, but we, the 'outlaw' types, refuse to wear ties, and so oftenly we juz go around wif no tie on, only when stuff like prefect photos were taken when we went to search for our ties, usually at the deep bottoms of our sch bags... and so, to all leaders reading this now, i salute u all~~

star awards had passed long time liao, 3 days le, and kind of surprised at some results... but anyway, it's over le, so talking about it oso won't change anything... oso, congrats to vincent ng and jeanette aw for winning the top 10 most popular male and female artistes... singapore defeated laos 6-2 a couple of days ago, but the defence was really lousy... i was actually hoping for laos to score more as the result didn't reflect how lousy the defence was... if singapore win cambodia 2nite, then singapore will be through to the semi-finals, but if the defence dun improve, i believe they won't advance past the semi-finals...