was watching tvmobile on bus back home from school, and came to a part where andy lau was introducing his latest movie... de theme of the movie was about a type of love, a love which he felt that if everyone has, then there will be world peace... it's the love when u worry for others... then a question popped up... will u rather die before or after ur loved one, in particular ur wife/husband? when u are with ur loved one, it's inevitable that one will go b4 the other, the 'gone' is often the case of death... so when u are dying, or when u know u got some incurable disease, do u worry about ur loved one? whether or not she will be able to endure the agony? or whether can he/she continue to face this harsh world alone, without ur company by his/her side? so if u really say u care about ur loved one, and that u prefer to die after him/her, wad else can others say? say that u are a selfish person, because u want a longer life, that u even wish to outlive ur loved one? selfish or care? it's juz a fine line in between, and only u urself know which side u are on....

found out another bad trait in me... too stubborn and irresponsible at times... juz because being frustrated, or mayb it's juz can't be bothered, become stubborn and make irresponsible actions and remarks... y did i have that thought? thinking back, it's really irresponsible... if it only affects me alone then i dun care, but in fact it affects many many ppl... haizzz, sometimes can be juz so stubborn (even my mother sometimes oso says that i'm as stubborn as a bull)